lundi 20 juin 2011

In between

Motivation is a strange thing. I feel pulled in several directions and most of the time end up doing nothing. I want to draw something, and at the same time not, it seems too difficult, too long, not worth the effort.

So I just continue with these little experiments, easy, fun, like little meditations. They satisfy my need for lines and colors.

I hope I'll feel inspired for more, soon. But in fact it doesn't matter. I'm trying to let go of a lot of unwanted baggage and attitudes, and the emptiness in between is confusing (and a little frightening, too).

The black thing in the middle represents nothing. It serves to hide a terribly failed face drawing. Poor kid, I couldn't let his face look like this.
Do you have times like this, when you really want to do something, create something, and nothing is really it, and the thing evades you?
I think it happens to me because of the changes in my life, and the fact that I'm really in between things, not where I want to be yet, but well on the way. And patience has never been my forte...

10 commentaires:

Sarah a dit…

Yes, I've felt like this - many times! Something good usually comes out of it though, so I'm sure it will for you too.

Ann a dit…

Same here. I imagine it is a part of the creative process - that searching. I do love your sketchbook pages.

nanke's stuff a dit…

Oh yes, I've been there time and time again .... I'm surprised I haven't run into you there! lol It's good that you keep doing something with art, even tho it may not feel that it's quite what you want to do. This will pass, trust me. nancy

PAMO ART a dit…

A beautiful, beautiful post- so full of creative energy and truth. I think you've expressed the creative cycle wonderfully. Your drawings and chosen sayings are perfect.

I'm no longer blogging- but will continue to follow you. Thank you for all of your inspiration. Good luck with your future career. I know you will do great.

marancat a dit…

Transition periods are so difficult - longing to move forward but not quite yet able to let go of the past. I expect the meditative aspects of drawing will be helping more than you realise. I love the faces and the ncolours you chose for the background.

Alex a dit…

No book drawing but with a whole bunch of awesome designs and illustrations Kazumi. I think that's a good product of creativity itself. I get pulled by my day job at the plant most of the time, and when I am at home... video games.
I hate it when my publisher don't keep in touch with me, as I would try not to do to much(means I stop illustrating altogether)... I guess I am also pulled by that.
Anyway, love your drawings, and the faces are awesome too!

Ellen Burkett a dit…

What a wonderful way to help yourself work through your struggles! I will remember these! I just stumbled through a block myself. Great work, kazumi!!

whatidoisme a dit…

I think you are doing exactly the right thing to get through this phase - I'm sure something will emerge from just doodling and drawing and painting.
Sue

Tahirih a dit…

I think what you have done is wonderful. I know all artists would relate to you...I certainly do. I've been really sick lately, and also going through a lot of creative uncertainty...what to paint? do i have a style? I want to get paid, but people only buy when I paint for the market, not myself...grrr...all of these things affect our creativity. I believe that when we're working on a lot of internal stuff, creativity is hard, because it comes from us internally, and when all of that is taken up, our creativity is extinguished. But when we finally come out, we're ahead of the game because we have been working on it, even if it's only subconsciously.

Dan Kent a dit…

I think these are great fun - and it is fun for me to see you do something other than books. I think you are right - you are in transition. That is a good thing, and I think all creative people go through it. So I look forward to see where you will be on the other side!